So I think about maybe joining Tinder but the thought of how it seems like all men on dating websites are tools and/or douchebags stops me from going through with it.
Along with the prospect of dating, I hate the word, too much expectations attached to it. And the high expectations when meeting someone for the first time to be exciting, interesting and entertaining…. big sigh.
Sucks when someone is your number one go to friend for practically everything but you’re not theirs. Sorry I’m only good for hanging out until you have “better” shit to do. Pay me my fucking money and I won’t ask you to do anything special with me ever again. Hypocrite.
if you were just hanging out with someone and after you go home is when they ask if something is wrong, why? lol why wait until we weren’t in the same room anymore to ask? do people honestly think that people want to spill their guts over text message? not everyone.
I feel like I’m wasting so much time and energy thinking, practically obsessing over something I’m not even sure of what I feel myself.
some days (sometimes it changes within minutes or hours) I just want to scream, say something, how I feel, the confusion or ask him what he’s thinking. othertimes I just can’t help but think maybe the time has passed, maybe we just aren’t compatible like that. like we aren’t that close anyway, why would we get in a relationship.
maybe I should just be done, there hasn’t been an signs so maybe I should just stop looking for any. I can’t imagine us doing couply things so maybe thats my sign
I really don’t like it when I realize negative things about myself :\ today, I came to the conclusion that I am boring. I have absolutely nothing exciting going on in my life. I have no job, no boyfriend, and no social life.
the last really exciting/unique thing I did was two years ago so now is irrelevant to making me exciting right now.
this winter really needs to end, getting more and more depressed.